I’ve never told you but i had a dream; in the dream i finally saw you, i finally was near you again, breathing and taking you all in. My vibe was warm and i showed nothing surprising and then like I’ve been waiting for when i turned away you grabbed me, pulled me into such a close proximity that i could inhale your cologne, the alcohol off your breath before you kissed me. Not just any kiss but the best kind of kiss because the moment leading up to it was a surprise and full of a deep wanting that only i thought i could feel. But it did’t last forever, forever wouldn’t even be long enough with you. The surprise was it was me who pulled away in tears and shakes because it was the realization that our moment in the dark was dishonest. I finally knew that it wasn’t me you wanted to hold, it was Sydney. The girl i could never be, the girl i could never measure up too. I guess it was so easy for you to pretend i was her in the dark, but when the lights come on you’ll realize I’m not Sydney and in that moment all i can think is how disappointing i must have been.